Taylor would be 11 months today...it's so hard not to think of the things she'd be doing or saying. Especially with reminders at every turn. I can't believe she's been gone almost 6 months and yet my heart aches so much still. Somehow we fake it until we make it, but missing her just never goes away. It's not fair and it's definitely not right.
I saw a group of firemen while grabbing lunch the other day. I asked one of them if he was from the Missouri house because they were one of the ones that responded and I wanted to thank him. Even though he wasn't from there, I thanked them for all they do and gave him one of Taylor's Random Acts of Kindness cards. I can't imagine the things they've seen...the losses, the sadness. These men and women are amazing and it felt so good to share our graditude for what they tried to do for our sweet baby girl, Taylor.
So off for another day of trying to find the smile. Whether it's on my face or those of others when I can pass on little munchkin's smile.